Thursday, May 03, 2007

difficult decisions...

well, i made 3 hard scrapping-related decisions today. first of all, i am not going to try out for the little dreamer designs CT. this is huge--i LOVE michelle coleman's work, and i have been waiting for her to do a call. now, my chances of making it were slim at best, but i don't feel like i have the time to devote right now, and i had to be honest about that. also, i resigned two of my other CTs....again, very hard decisions. i have tremendous respect for both designers, but i needed to cut down. i am only waiting to hear about one CT call: weeds & wildflowers. they posted on their blog that the announcement will be sunday, and if i am lucky enough (again, i will say it once again, snowball's chance) to get that, i will take it. but i have vowed not to apply for any more CTs for a while. i realized this week that it has been a long time since i scrapped for me, for pleasure, and i feel like i will have a little more time to do that now...as my friend trish said today, "yep, you are like me. you tend to make hobbies into jobs." she is exactly right! :) i hate to let people down, and i hate to quit anything, but i feel like i am making the right decision for me.

on top of that, i am pretty sure i have a sinus infection. stuffy head, general fatigue, aching face and teeth. i am taking some antihistamine/decongestants, and i am hoping to avoid a trip to the doctor and antibiotics...

i'll be around more later--hope you all had a good day!

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

almost done!

i am almost done with school for this year, and i can taste summer already! my students are taking an exam right now; i have to give another exam at 2pm, then on saturday i give my last exam, and then it is SUMMER!!!! can't even begin to tell you how excited i am! it has been a difficult year for me, and i am totally burnt out. i need the summer to recharge and reconnect to my kids.

dh and i had a wonderful weekend. the kids went to my inlaws, and although we each had a ton of work to do, we really enjoyed ourselves. we ate out on friday night, saturday night, and sunday morning. saturday night was my birthday, so we went to "our" restaurant and i ate my favorite meal! then sunday afternoon we ate a late lunch at marble slab creamery. basically we acted like we used to before we had children. we slept late and did things on our own clock. we went to target and wandered around. we talked about everything and nothing. it was heavenly. truly. i didn't realize how much we really needed some time for just us.

we also decided that if i am not pregnant this cycle of clomid (my 4th), we are going to take a break. we want to take the kids to disney for christmas (can you imagine all the cool scrapping??), and we decided that if we haven't conceived by the first of next year, we will start IF treatment again and do IUI. i feel mixed about it. it is hard to stop IF treatment, but it doesn't mean we'll stop trying on our own. and i must admit that the prospect of having a break from the meds is super appealing. emotionally i am a wreck, and i know a lot of that has to do with the way the meds are messing with my hormones...either way, at least dh and i are on the same page, and that means the world to me.

ON TO SOME GOOD STUFF:

first of all, saraamarie has asked me to stay on as a full time CT member! i had so much fun being a guest this past month, and i am rocked to get the opportunity to stay on! she has some really great things coming up, so check back to see previews!

second, wendyzine at ES has asked me to do a guest CT gig for the month of may! she just released a neat new collab kit:



i have also joined kathryn wilson's CT--she is a new designer, and she will be selling her designs at dragonflaire studios. i think her designs are really neat and fresh, and i feel like she has great things ahead of her! :)

and OMG!! did you see that michelle coleman at little dreamer designs is having a CT call???? i am going to take a stab at it, although i think my chances are about as good as that of a snowball in the deepest bowels of hell! LOL but a girl has to try, right? i mean, her designs are to die for, and i am a huge huge fan!

speaking of, here is my latest layout:



i used weeds & wildflowers "going west sampler" and kathy moore's "essentials stamped alpha" for the layout. it is for the w&w ct call--again, snowball's chance--a girl has to try, right? i just love the depth to their papers and their elements ROCK!

i hope all of you have a great hump day!